Alone in the light at the dining room table, I sat in tears．
Finally, I'd succeeded in getting both kids to bed．I got them both washed, 1 by cries of delight, crazy running around, laughing and throwing things． 2 calmed down, they lay in their beds as I gave each the five minutes' back rubs as usual．Then I began the night time routine of a song, both kids' 3 ．I sang it over and over until they seemed fully engaged in 4 ．
A recently 5 man with full custody(监护权)of his children, I was determined to give them as 6 and stable a home life as possible．I 7 a happy face for them．Everything was just as it had always been with the exception 8 their mother was now missing．There, another night successfully 9 ．
I rose slowly, tiptoed out of their room and went downstairs．
Sitting at the 10 room table, I realized that this was the first time since I came home from work that I'd been able to 11 sit down．
Then it all crowded in on me：the fatigue(疲惫)，the 12 of the responsibility, the worry about bills I wasn't sure I could pay that month．And 13 ．I felt as though I were at the bottom of a great sea of loneliness．I sat there, silently sobbing．
Just then, a pair of little arms went around my middle and a little face peered up at me．I looked down into my five-year-old son's 14 face．
I was 15 to be seen crying by my son．“I'm sorry, Ethan．I didn't know you were still awake．I'm sorry．I'm just a little 16 tonight．”
“It's okay, Daddy．It's okay to cry．You're just a 17 ．”
I can't express how happy he made me, who gave me 18 to cry．He seemed to be saying that I didn't have to always be 19 , that it was occasionally possible to allow myself to feel weak and 20 my feeling．Somehow, it was possible for me to get to sleep that night．Thank you, my son．
Alone in the light at the dining-room table, I sat in tears．
Finally, I'd succeeded in getting both kids to bed．I got them both washed, 1 by cries of delight, crazy running around, laughing and throwing things． 2 calmed down, they lay in their beds as I gave each the five minutes' back rubs as usual．Then I began the night time routine of a song, both kids' 3 ．I sang it over and over until they seemed fully engaged in 4 ．
A recently 5 man with full custody(监护权)of his children, I was determined to give them as 6 and stable a home life as possible．I 7 a happy face for them．Everything was just as it had always been with the exception 8 their mother was now missing．There, another night successfully 9 ．
I rose slowly, tiptoed out of their room and went downstairs．
Sitting at the 10 room table, I realized that this was the first time since I came home from work that I'd been able to 11 sit down．
Then it all crowded in on me：the fatigue(疲惫)，the 12 of the responsibility, the worry about bills I wasn't sure I could pay that month and 13 ．I felt as though I were at the bottom of a great sea of loneliness．I sat there, silently sobbing．
Just then, a pair of little arms went around my middle and a little face peered up at me．I looked down into my five-year-old son's 14 face．
I was 15 to be seen crying by my son．“I'm sorry, Ethan, I didn't know you were still awake．I'm sorry．I'm just a little 16 tonight．”
“It's okay, Daddy．It's okay to cry, you're just a 17 ．”
I can't express how happy he made me, who gave me 18 to cry．He seemed to be saying that I didn't have to always be 19 , that it was occasionally possible to allow myself to feel weak and 20 my feeling．Somehow, it was possible for me to get to sleep that night．Thank you, my son．